If I am given the position emotions I know that I will be feeling are happiness, curiosity, and an overwhelming feeling of anxiety and fear.
I remember returning from backpacking and wanting to apply for this opportunity as soon as I possibly could. Then I started to realize that the timing would not have been the greatest. . If I would have applied in December I would've had to leave during the summer which meant my 21st birthday would have been spent in a country where drinking can be done at any age with parental consent (im looking at you, seven year old boy in Garmisch) and it's legal at age 16. Fast forward to March when I sent in my application. I remember applying and thinking OK this is it!!!! My life cane positively change.
Now there definitely has been a wave of emotions that aren't entirely positive. Anxiety started to cloud my head. And of course realizing i would be away from my family and Noel made me want to spend as much time as I can with everyone close to me because by the end of the year I could be residing in Garmsich..... Also I realize that even though family can visit me and I have the ability to talk to them the time difference really puts a damper on communication. I also thought to myself wow I wouldn't be able to have Thursday dinners with my sisters, or Street outlaw updates with Noel. And I wouldn't be able to learn hands on about cars with Noel which really was something that I always looked forward to. Or thai dates with the parentals!!
¡¡¡Here is to reflecting on this journey in my life!!!
